What I've been waiting for

"The smile on my face, tells me I'm exactly at the place that I want to be...."
- Brian McKnight on his latest track.


And he will sing me to sleep tonight.... gooooooooooodnight. :).

'That crater is BEAMING on my face right now.
love.love.love.

- Signed, sealed and delivered...

Forward.

Looking forward. SO SO SO SO SO excited as big things are about to happen!
I am loving every moment.

Ahhh, thank you for the early birthday gift.

Cannnnnoooooooottt wait!

-xoxoxox.

- Signed, sealed and delivered...

'Til it's...

Gone.


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Oldie but goodie.

If there's one thing that I love doing in my spare time it's listening to some relaxing music while writing in my journal. It's just as if the ink in my pen flows congruently with each beat. And this, I love.

Also, dontcha love it when you're listening to your ipod and an oldie-but-goodie feel-good song comes playing along outta nowhere? You know what I'm talking about. I loooooooooooooove it when this happens. When it's the perfect rhythm for exactly what you're feeling that day. This can cause that dimple on my face to become a huuuuge crater. =).

Now on my way back from New York City to Philly on the Bolt bus, there I was listening to my ipod while writing and all the sudden an oldie-but-goodie feel good song comes on. And BAM! It hit me. Just like that. There I was bobbing my head to the beat, mouthing what I thought the lyrics were, whilst the guy next to me was just staring. Meh. Whatevs. I just sat there enjoying the music as the lyrics hit every coronary artery possible.

"ooooooohhhhhhhhh oooooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhh oooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhh.... Bag
lady, you gon' hurt your back dragging all them bags like that...."

The famous words from Ms.Badu - Bag Lady. I don't think that she could have stated it any better. You see, these days there are many hurting women who allow certain memories from their past to haunt their present and even affect their future. What's this hurt I am speaking of? You know, the hurt that may come from past relationships. Past relationships with friends, parents, boys or other loved ones. She ain't just talking about physically carrying them plastic bags in this song but the emotional baggage that can stem from the past and this is the most dangerous thing to carry around. It's like the ultimate weapon for your own destruction of your heart, mind and soul. It's like a hand grenade. Emotional baggage can encapsulate you and all the sudden, -tick-tock-tick-tock-.....boom! You've allowed it to destroy yourself.

You see, now maybe you've been hurt before. Ok, the truth is.... who hasn't? And maybe you've experience something that was really painful. Maybe you were physically hurt. Maybe words were exchanged. Maybe promises were broken. Maybe it really was bad. A memory. A situation. Words. Brokeness. Tears. Pain. But when we carry this emotional baggage all it's going to do is weigh us down. Weigh us down to the point where we won't get anywhere. Bottom line - we'll just be stuck. And this, this will show.

If there's one thing that I've learned, there is no use to holding onto something that is painful. Whatever it is, Ms.Badu couldn't have sung it better "Let it go. Let it go. Let it go. Let it go....." And there is no use in being cynical or bitter 'cause all that is useless. Bitterness is as corrosive as acid is to metal and as destructive as rust is to a brand new car. Bitterness is ugly but forgiveness allows you to move forward and leap over mountains.

And, Real love. This kind of love heals all wounds. Even wounds that may have reopened. Real, unfailing and everlasting kind of love. Word. Romans 8:38.

All in all, packing light is so much easier and possibly one of the most liberating feelings in the world. Especially if you're running after something... Love. Dreams. Goals. Hope. Ambitions.... The list goes on & on & on...

Now who wants to go catch that bus? ---- scratch that, I'll just drive. Come with? =)
---- but first, I gotta nap. It's almost 5am.

- Signed, sealed & delivered...