Porcelain Girl

She became just an object on the shelf. Something that he could take off the shelf and throw down whenever he desired.
It wasn't always like this. The first day he got this porcelain girl, he took care of it. He protected it from breaking. He saw her worth. Yet after awhile, he could not comprehend the beauty of her heart and soul. He forgot what it was like to protect her. He forgot that she was beautiful... inside and out.
You see in the eyes of everyone else, she was a delicate treasure.
She sat there on the shelf waiting patiently, thinking that maybe he would remember. Maybe one day he would remember what it was like...
But she realized this was simply a figment of her imagination....
She was the foolish one.
By trying to please, she only lost more of who she was.
She gave up her heart only to find this could not be returned.
Sharp words were thrown at this Porcelain girl....
It was painful... they could be forgiven but would never be forgotten.
It was a sad sight to see her in this way.
Her heart was shattered as pieces of it fell onto the floor...
It was as fragile as glass.
Her sweet porcelain face cried tears of sorrow.
She cried until there was nothing left to cry about.
The broken hearted porcelain girl watched as he closed the door.
He did not try to pick up the pieces that were left shattered on the floor.
He no longer wanted any part. Nothing. He walked away.
And then she remembered those words that shattered her precious little heart...
When those words echoed throughout the craters of her being, she could no longer bear the pain and ran.
The porcelain girl ran away to her original creator and dollmaker.
It was at the shop, the dollmaker reminded her that everything was going to be alright. The dollmaker was the one who truly saw her worth and reminded her that the one who chose to walk away and close the door really didn't know how to properly care for her. The dollmaker was the one who had the proper instructions of how to take care of this precious porcelain girl... The dollmaker whispered into her sweet porcelain face that one day, someone will ask for the instructions of how to really take care of her. Someone would treasure her. And that would be the day she would open her heart up again. One day. One day.


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Clever words.

If there's one thing that I appreciate... it's good music with fierce words. What do I mean by this? It's the type of music that you can relate you.

I read these words by an artist, Lance Drummonds.... "As we travel through this life, we encounter various experiences, roads, and people. And as we journey through relationships, from one love to the next, we inevitably bring “baggage” with us, most times unknowingly from the previous relationship to the current one. We “walk” with it everywhere and carry it with us in conversations. They do not necessarily have to be negative “baggage,” but baggage none the less. I mean think about it, when you were hurt by something in the previous relationship and something similar happens in the current relationship a RED FLAG goes up. Like, “whoa….I don’t like where this is going.” It is just human nature. And this album discusses the journey from one relationship to the next relationship and all that we carry in between…."

And it made me appreciate his music even more. If you haven't heard of him before... cheeeccck him out. Good music. Real good music.

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Repercussions

New music from my favourite... Lauryn Hill. Awwwwwwwwwwww yeah.

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The wilderness

Currently I am reading through the book of Numbers. Last month, it was Exodus. And as I am going through these chapters... one thing tugs at my heart. The Israelites wandering the wilderness.... that's me. I feel like He's asking me, "Eda, how many more miracles do you have to see before you finally trust? I AM GOING TO GET YOU OUT OF THIS WILDERNESS.... I promise you." Just as God promised the Israelites back in the day, He has also promised me that this is a portion of my life that we're going to trek out of hand in hand and end up in the promised land. I look forward to this day. I look forward to this day.... And so, as we trek onward I look forward in hope. I look forward with a future that I know is all planned. I look forward to the day where I am outta this wilderness and on a new adventure. In His perfect timing, not ours....

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