"We all want things to stay the same. Settle for living in misery because we're afraid of change, of things crumbling to ruins. Then I looked at around to this place, at the chaos it has endured - the way it has been adapted, burned, pillaged and found a way to build itself back up again. And I was reassured, maybe my life hasn't been so chaotic, it's just the world that is, and the real trap is getting attached to any of it. Ruin is a gift. Ruin is the road to transformation..." - Eat, Pray Love.
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Friday, December 17, 2010
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Words I cannot seem to say.
If you only knew. But you have no idea.
If you could only understand that this time, things are different.
I am guarding my heart.
This time, I've learned and I know that my heart is stronger. I am stronger.
If only I could tell you but I feel like I can't.
Silence seems to be deafening.
The words are stuck in my throat. And instead, another moment passes by.
Next time. Next time. Next time.
I know I did the right thing, but if you only knew.
But you have no idea.
If you could only understand that this time, things are different.
I am guarding my heart.
It's walls have been broken before and the repair has taken some time.
As much as I want to act upon what I feel or say what it is I want to really say,
I know that it just isn't right.
It doesn't feel right.
My head and heart are duking it out once again.
If only they could understand each other but they too, like you & I are having trouble communicating.
One knows the truth, the other refuses to listen.
Just like you & I. We know the truth. We know what to do but it seems we refuse to act upon it all.
Fear of uncertainty? Fear of the unknown? Fear of rejection?
Maybe it's just the nerves.
I realize now, that there are things I will never understand. There are actions I will never comprehend and vice versa. BUT.
One day. Someday. Maybe things will be different.
For now, the silence is deafening.
I will sit in that silence & pray.
- Signed, sealed and delivered...
If you could only understand that this time, things are different.
I am guarding my heart.
This time, I've learned and I know that my heart is stronger. I am stronger.
If only I could tell you but I feel like I can't.
Silence seems to be deafening.
The words are stuck in my throat. And instead, another moment passes by.
Next time. Next time. Next time.
I know I did the right thing, but if you only knew.
But you have no idea.
If you could only understand that this time, things are different.
I am guarding my heart.
It's walls have been broken before and the repair has taken some time.
As much as I want to act upon what I feel or say what it is I want to really say,
I know that it just isn't right.
It doesn't feel right.
My head and heart are duking it out once again.
If only they could understand each other but they too, like you & I are having trouble communicating.
One knows the truth, the other refuses to listen.
Just like you & I. We know the truth. We know what to do but it seems we refuse to act upon it all.
Fear of uncertainty? Fear of the unknown? Fear of rejection?
Maybe it's just the nerves.
I realize now, that there are things I will never understand. There are actions I will never comprehend and vice versa. BUT.
One day. Someday. Maybe things will be different.
For now, the silence is deafening.
I will sit in that silence & pray.
- Signed, sealed and delivered...
Sunday, December 5, 2010
And this is how the story goes...
Same old story. I'm pretty sure this is all too familiar.
- Signed, sealed and delivered...
- Signed, sealed and delivered...
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