It just clicks.

"When you're searching for love... you're searching.
When you're trying to find love out of something it's too much effort,
it's not right. Things aren't going to click.
I've wanted it to be it. And it just wasn't.
When you just love somebody and they love you back, it just clicks.
You don't have to try for it..."

It's almost been a year....

It's almost been a year since I've moved away.

And I've got to say, this has been the best decision I've ever made.
It's had it's ups & downs. It hasn't been easy being on my own in a new city but regardless,
I am so thankful for where God has placed me
& I am so grateful for everything that He has done.


Amazing experience.
A new me.

I'm coming home soon for the summer....
This should be interesting.
Let's doooo this.

Moving Along

"Letting go is the easy part, moving on is the hardest part"...

I say, this is true. I was watching Grey's last night and heard this quote. It reminds me of how much I've come along and I am absolutely so proud of myself. I never thought I could let go, let alone move on but I see where I am now and that's exactly what I'm doing.My past experiences taught me a lot about myself. And I see where I am now & I've moved on from what was. And am now looking towards the brightest future.

I realize now that I've got so many people to meet. And I've learned that it's nice to be appreciated. It's nice to feel special. And I appreciate the man who can do that for me. And to a special someone, thank you for cracking that smile on my face from time to time and making me realize that there is so much more out there. And that this is how a girl is supposed to feel. My heart realizes that I've been missing out on this all along.

Living out here has opened my eyes to a whole new world. A whole new me. And I've met wonderful and amazing people along the way. I think that my move out here has been one that I don't regret at all. Yeah, it was really scary at first but now I've got such a wonderful network of friends -- it's great.

Another thing that I've learned living out here is that you learn which friendships are worth keeping and which ones you can do without. I've learned that there are some friendships that I've moved on from and yeah, we might have been really close back then but now I'm able to see true colours for what they are and I realize that it's time to move forward. I appreciate it for what is was but things change. People change. We all change.

And you know, it's just a fact of moving along..

Dream Chasin'.

Being out here makes me realize that this is what dream chasin' is about. You miss home from time to time but then you realize you gotta focus & that you're happy 'cause you're accomplishing your goals. And you're doing exactly what you want & are meant to do in life. Everything will happen accordingly ♥. love love love.

People may say you've changed. And the truth is, that you have. Living far away from home makes you a completely different person.

When you live on your own, you learn how to fend for yourself.

You learn more about yourself and you learn how to stand up for what you believe in.

So pardon me if I am different.

I won't tolerate being mistreated.

I won't tolerate games.

I won't tolerate lies.

And that's that.

I'm still that girl you grew up with but just with a little more flare.

I'm dream chasin' and doing what I love and I can't let anything petty stop me from that.

Peace.

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I forgive you

"I forgive you, I forgive me
Now when do I start to feel again?
I forgive you, I forgive me
Now when do I start to feel again?

'Cause the lights are on
But I'm never home
But I'll be back with a brand new attitude
'Cause I forgive you

[chorus]
I forgive you
We were just a couple of kids
Trying to figure out how to live doing it our way
No shame, no blame
'Cause the damage is done
And, and I forgive you

I forgive you
We were busy living a dream
Never noticed the glass city falling in on us
No shame, no blame
'Cause the damage is done
And, and I forgive you

I forgive you, I forgive me
Now when do I start to feel again?
If I hate you what does that do?
So I breathe in and I count to 10

'Cause the lights are on
And I'm coming home
Yes, I am back with a new heart in my hand
'Cause I forgive you

[repeat chorus]

I forgive you
For every times that I cried
Over some stupid thing you did to hurt me
That's alright
Yeah, I forgive you

I forgive you
We were just a couple of kids
Trying to figure out how to live doing it our way
No shame, no blame
'Cause the damage is done

And, and I forgive you..."

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Freedom

2012 is the year. The year where I will live in complete freedom of anything that used to hold me back.

It's a new year to be refreshed and continue to strive for my dreams and aspirations.

What I used to hold onto dearly, just isn't worth it anymore.

It's time to look forward and continue to become a woman of strength and determination.

Big dreams will come true.

Big things will happen.

This, is the year where I will live in freedom.

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The Key

The only way to move on is to forgive.

Forgiveness is key.

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Spoken Word

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Happy

Happiness.

Is the best when it's truly genuine.

*Big smiles.

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Next Chapter

"Move on. It is just a chapter in the past, but don't close the book- just turn the page."

It's so exciting because I've got a new chapter out here in TO. I'm moving on from my old life and am making a new one for myself out here.... One day, I'm sure I'll be back in beautiful British Columbia. I love the people and I love the mountains but for now, this is where I'm supposed to be and I am going to make the most out of it!

I also found this quote --- a reminder:

"Dear Girl,

I think its time for you to let go of him. He has hurt you and me too much. Just let the memories fade. Its time to leave him behind. I know it'll be hard but its for the best, trust me. Remember, always follow your heart and everything will be fine.

Love always, Your Heart."

So glad I listened to my heart a long time ago &&& so proud that it worked out for me.

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The Fight

They say "love isn't enough".

I believe this is true. You need love to be in a relationship but you also need the willingness to fight and conquer.

Someone who knows my worth and is willing to fight for it. When it gets tough, I don't need someone who's going to backdown and leave.

I need someone who is willing to stand up for me because they love me.

Someone who knows themselves like I know myself.

Someone to be sure of themselves.

Someone who will be there alongside me through all the trials in life.

Why? Because I know I will do the same.

My past has taught me well. Although it was painful, I have grown immeasurably.

Ladies, don't settle for anything less because you deserve the world :).

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2012. It's here

A new year & there's nothing but excitement within me.

I feel like my trip back home was wonderful but I'm so ready to conquer my dreams.

I'm living independently in a new city and it is an experience that is challenging but exhilarating.

I am so ready for what is in store for my future.

And I feel like I've left my past in the past where it belongs and have made the best decisions so far with no regrets of shoulda, woulda, coulda.

This song - The World (It's Yours) by Phoenix Pagliacci feat. Junia-T of the Smash Brovaz is definitely my theme song for this year.

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We talkin' deep.

I had a wonderful conversation with my big brother today.

It reaffirmed everything that has been going on with my life.

Big move, big decisions --- all for the right reasons.

When you move away, you're better able to focus on what needs to get done. You are able to rebuild your character with exuberant strength and wisdom. You are able to make decisions about your future and how you want to handle the matters of the heart.

Even though I've been away from home for a short period of time, it's already evident to me that I made the right decision.

And I am more than happy.

It is true that people have said I've got that "glow". Beaming of nothing but radiant happiness that I am where I am today and I have become this new version of myself through everything that I have gone through in the past.

Cheers, to the future. Goodbye to 2011.

Hello to 2012.

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Hear My Call

I love this song. And I also love J.Scott. I remember when I first heard this song play at her concert.... it brought tears to my eyes. I love music that speaks volumes through its lyrics. J. Scott has that ability. This song brought me through a rough time in my life & I am thankful.

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Be Strong & Courageous

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It is what it is.

"If someone wants to be a part of your life, they'll make an effort to be in it. So don't bother reserving a space in your heart for someone who doesn't make an effort to stay."

Word.

- Signed, sealed and delivered....

Cheers

I feel it already.

I am at a better place. I am focused.

I have the ability to be myself. To be by myself as well.

A part of me wonders about home... but then, I realize this is my new home.

It doesn't matter what's going on back there. What matters is this is it.

This is a matter of independence, strength, growth and experience.

A pure healing for my soul.

A much needed time for me to truly become a woman who knows herself and knows her worth.

I will not settle for anything less than I am worth.

I will not put myself on another roller coaster of ups & downs and allow that to happen in my life.

This is so different.

I am a different version of me.

A better and more upgraded version of myself.

So cheers,

to new beginnings.

Cheers,

to new friendships.

Cheers,

to a new me.

Goodbye to the old self. And hello to the upgraded version.

Whenever I do go home, the change in me will be so different that it'll just shine.

I know it. I see it for myself. And you know what?

So will everyone else.

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Turning point.

And so comes the crucial turning point,

where you realize who you are and what you're worth.

There's no turning back from here.

New city. New adventures. New dreams.

I'm chasing after the dreams.

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New City, new me

I think this city is going to allow me to evolve into a different version of myself.

An even better version of me that I wouldn't have been able to obtain living at home.

It's an amazing feeling being out here.... But it can feel lonesome as well.

In the long run, I know that I'm here for a reason!

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Street style

I've just got a new blog up and running dedicated to street style....

check it out! :)

It's a nice break from school to blog. Love it!

http://stylish-fashionista.blogspot.com

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